Processing the Process - Part 3

Today is the day, and this is the last blog post.

I have learned and grown more in this year than I ever thought was possible. I have let go of some of the aspects of my life that I was convinced were permanent: my job, my trauma, my life plan. I have gained a new understanding of myself and the world around me. I have learned lessons in control and change and coping. Just as we all have, I have changed.

I have also spent the last nine months talking about myself and hoping other people feel what I feel and that I am not alone. It turns out, some of you did, and this blog has allowed me to reconnect and remain connected to so many incredible people.

The growth doesn’t stop here. After thinking and reflecting on what I want to do and where I want to go, I have realized one big thing about myself: I am very connected to my work. Every screenplay I write is about and experience I have had. Every blog is about myself and what I am doing and feeling. I’ve been using my art and words as a way to process, and though that has been beneficial, I have found healthier and more private ways to express my feelings.

It’s time for the next step.

This next year, my next artistic endeavor will be “Rainy Sunday Mornings”. The last Sunday of each month, I will be releasing a new creative work in film, writing, or photography. I want to take everything I’ve learned about myself and the artistic avenues I love and allow myself to create new and engaging works that are not directly about myself. It’s a big goal, but it’s also an achievable goal that I will be able to collaborate with other artists on and really grow as an artist.

So thank you for being a part of this journey. Thank you for watching me finding my footing and my voice. Thank you for making me not feel alone. Thank you for your time and understanding. Thank you.

See you in the new year.